The Truth in Love

It's amazing what one can learn when asked to be humbled and is open to it...

What's one thing everyone accuses me of? Answer: arrogance. I normally say I can't help it that I'm right all the time. And to be honest... that is the truth. But to be honest, no one would listen to me (or will listen to me) because I'm missing something of utmost importance: love.

I was reading 1 Corinthians 13 again today. I've read it many times but today, I noticed I never really read verses 1-3. I read those verses and they are as follows:

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

It just popped into my head what I've been doing wrong all along: I havent been loving in my demonstration of correct thinking. I've been so consumed by using my mind that I've forgotten how to use my heart as well. I've been so smart in my thinking, that God has dumbed me down in my ability to use my heart. I've become such a "clanging symbol" that no matter how truth I say, no one will listen... and why? Because I have no love in my voice or spirit.

This is mostly due to bad things happening to me in the past when I have used my heart and it especially ticks me off watching churches only talk about love, love, love, love, love, love and guess what: LOVE! While they're a bit over the edge, I've begun to realize that I've gone too far myself; the opposite way.

It's time for me to get back to loving on others like how I used to when I was in elementary school. I've let my own head get too big for myself. So big in fact that I lost the most precious thing I've ever had. I lost her because I wasn't acting in a prince like manner--- Yeah I would sweep her off my feet but it was because I could smooth talk. It was never because I just wanted to love her and be devoted to her; no matter how much of a "sleeping beauty" she was.

Only time will tell why God decided to only reveal this to me now. In spite of everything, it's time to press on, look upward and get back to "childlike" love (yet still mature thinking) and use it to impact others the way I know I should be doing.